"Somewhere I Belong" - (by Linkin Park)

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I?m not the only person with these things in mind

(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed

I will never be
Anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain
I've felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it's gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I am somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like I am somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Sooo long since my last update~

So much had happened since~

Went to Wave Tomato for some sun & beach

It has one of the clearest water I've seen in HK

Then there was the new born baby girl of Bro Jeff's

My B'day, which I didn't do much

Thanx for organising and attending my b'day that nite :)

Maylee & Paola came to visit HK

We visited the Buddha & LKF clubs

nice seeing them after 7 years

My Bro Jason's wedding

Many Congratz!

Josh came back to HK, nice hanging out with him. Unfortunately, my job just make me work work work and work. Such a sad no life career! Sorry dude, we'll hang out more next time when I've quit.

Jenny's Birthday dinner & party! Happy Birthday!

Alvin's Birthday BBQ & party! Happy Birthday!

Congratz for Cliff & Gigi's wedding!

Recently had a thought. My life is so without a point. Building my career and making a few more thousand of dollars a month really won't make me any happier. It only eases my living and fulfilling my so called "responsibility" as an adult man, where there is no end to it. I want racing again!!! I know it won't be good for my bankroll, but it's how to make myself feel like I'm living!!! So my nearest goal will be getting back into racing! Why live a life doing what I don't want to do!? Hopefully, some sponsorship will help me out on this! Fighting!

Being a free man, I could actually afford to see the world a little more than before.

Just a quick review of my activities for the past few weeks.

Tony's B'day

BBQ + 1st May clubbing

This weekend's clubbing (notice my new haircut)

To live is to enjoy the present and tomorrow is a mystery.

:)

Finally, my new ECU (engine computer) has arrived and will be busy installing it in a car these coming weeks. Am quite excited about this, as I will be working on something I enjoy and may even make a profit out of it. Interestingly, AP Racing brakes are selling better than before the recession, as british pounds fell, meaning it is even cheaper than some crappy japanese brakes.

Had dinner with Big Aunt on friday, then went into Yuen Long. Coming back out again on Sat to play poker at Jason's place. Unfortunately, I lost $100, but it was an interesting game.

Sunday, watched F1 in the afternoon. Night went to have dinner with Nicole. Congratz Nicole, who's now reading news report on TVB Pearl everynight at 11:30pm.

I read an article on the newspaper the other day. It says that average HKU fresh grad are paid $15,000. All I have to say is "wtf", do I really have a degree? I almost forgot I graduated from london university with a master degree.

Recently, I'm getting the feeling that... "The good guys think I'm bad, and the bad guys think I'm good."   so what does that make me?   "The Chinese guys think I'm English, and the English guys think I'm Chinese."   so what does that make me?

Just figured out some sad news on one of my friends, wish you all the best!

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This week was quite busy.

Met up with Maisy Wong from Prior Park College for dinner and a drink. She managed to be an hours late, so I spent an hour sitting at the harbor staring over HK Island. While everything and every building looked still, millions of stories are happening every moment in this city. 90% of my life during the past 2 years were spent between those blocks of buildings, wasn't I doing too little things in life?

Went to watch Fast & Furious 4 with colleagues on Tuesday. I felt guilty that even I seem to love car so much, I never had a car like those they were driving in the movie! Think I better got one soon.

Wed, had dinner with Dad